The Art of Letting Go

It hurts when the things you used to do for me changes and you'd say I was the one who changed it. I had been observing you. I was in pain looking at you knowing you can never be mine. It hurts to know you keep secrets. 


I kept on thinking why do you always have to hide me and have me kept as a person who never existed in your life. I always tell myself that there are good reasons behind this and I agreed with the proposition you told me. This is the choice and I have to face tomorrow with or without you. 


I was just wondering where you might have been now. What have you been doing. I was thinking of the worst and the best of luck always.. Be happy wherever you may be.

love-hate-friendship-story/poems: Confused

love-hate-friendship-story/poems: Confused: It has been almost four years since the day you told me that we are officially together but never to tell anyone even our closest friends be...

Confused

It has been almost four years since the day you told me that we are officially together but never to tell anyone even our closest friends because we need time to tell them. I had been so happy and carefully looking at the days and time just to be with you. I did an extra mile just to take care of you and to see you often. I had been cared by you. I had been loved. I had been a girl being loved.

I felt like a teenager living the life being young and in love. Reality strikes when our friends kept on asking me over and over again about us. You know I lied for you. I did what I had to do because I noticed that no matter how close I am to you it just feels to far. One friend said that "he doesn't love you because if he has he should be proud of you". An arrow hits me straight through the veins with pain and misery but still I managed to smile. I have to always think of the feeling you told before. You were so happy with me and we were.

Then, other friends said that how long will you wait for something being uncertain that can never be yours? They said that it has never been good for the girl to be a martyr. I have to open and meet other men in that way I will be able to construct life. How sad is sad when you know your friends didn't even notice your feelings towards me. I have to beg my heart to be patient because of the silence I chose.

Looking at what we are right now, you we're never proud of me at all. I had to beg you in silence. I am confused of what to do and what I should do.

We Have Grown Apart

What makes a relationship work? Is it the presence of the one being there always or the way both of you make each time counts?

It has been dreary and full of questions tot his point. I had been secured with the relationship but he shuts his doors on me. T'was painful at first and misery covers me. I cried my heart out one day that cam into night. I wanted to burst into pain that why he can't just acknowledge me.

It hurts when you are the last priority and his friends always comes first.